بين زوجتى وابنتى

زوجتى الحبيبة هى مجموعة مشاعر وحب وحنان متحركة ولكن بلا سيطرة فاقدة لكل توجية... تعشق ابنتها ولكن عشق خانق .. لا تريد ان يكون لابنتنا صديقة سواها.. يتحول البيت الى شحنة من الانفعالات والصريخ والتهديد حينما تجد ابنتنا تحب صديقتها .. ترى ذلك خيانة لها ... وترانى اشجع ابنتى على خيانتها.. اريد ان تفرح ابنتى مع صديقاتها .. اريد ابنتى ان ترى الحياة وتتعلمها وتتعلم كيف تتفاهم وتتحمل الاخرين ... اريد ابنتى ان تجيد فن احتمال الشخصيات المتعبة بدون ان تنجرح مشاعرها ولا تفقد دمعة واحدة... لكن هل تظنون زوجتى تترك لى الفرصة؟؟؟حولت ايام الاعياد والاجازات الى ايام نكد ليكون الجميع فى طاعتها فقط وليعلم الجميع واولهم انا ماذا يحدث من جراء كسر اوامرها ...

كبرت ابنتى ...صارت زوجتى تنتظر.... وتتوعد العريس الذى سياتى لاخذ ابنتها...زوجتى خصصت نوتة او غالبا هى اجندة لكتابة طلبتها من عريس ابنتها... وبرضة بتكتب البيانات الخاصة بهم ... مش فاهم ليه!؟؟؟ غالبا بتبعت اعينها الخاصة للسؤال عنهم.. وهذا يزعج ابنتى جدا... انا فى حيرة
انا اشعر بشماتة اريد ان ارى من هو الرجل الذى يستطيع احتمال زوجتى مثلى.. لكنى اشفق على ابنتى اريدها ان تفوز بحب زوجها لتسعد معها كل ايام عمرها وتفرح بتقديره واحترامه..

زوجتى الحبيبة هل لى ان اطلب دقائق لاتحدث الى ابنتى لاعلمها كيف تكون الصديقة الوفيه لزوجها ... اريد ان اعلمها فن اكتساب احترامه وتقديره مدى الحياة ... زوجتى الحبيبة مع احترامى لك ِ انت ستعلميها الانانية وكثرة الطلبات التى لا تنتهى .. انت ستعلميها ان تقارن بين زوجها وازواج صديقاتها .. نصائحك ستجعل ابنتى تنظر الى القشور... ثارت زوجتى وتوعدت وهددت كالمعتاد بترك البيت لى لاحراجى امام الناس .. واعتبرت انى اقود عصيان عليها.... وصمت انا كالمعتاد

لكن ابنتى تصر على رفض كل من يحاول التقرب منها وترفض حتى ان تتكلم معى لتاخذ نصيحتى .. ابنتى تتصرف بعيدا عنى ... ولم تعد تقول لامها شيئا ... ابنتى تعلمت منى ان تصمت اما صراخ امها وقهرها....
اما زوجتى فكانت تجد لذتها فى ان تبتسم ابتسامة صفراء لكل من تعرف ان يريد الارتبابط بابنتى.. وانظر الى ابنتى اجدها مرتعبة من امها يملأها الحزن والحيرة ... ولا تتكلم

زوجتى الحبيبة لا تستطيع ان تجلس وتكون على غير علم بما يحدث .. لذلك قررت ان تجعل ابنتى تحت المراقبة مثلما كانت تفعل معى تماما حتى فى عملها ... بكل الوسائل تتحايل على زملاء ابنتى فى العمل فى كنيسة فى خدمة لتعرف ماذا يحدث!!!!

واندلع فجأة حريق كبير جدا الله وحده يعلم مداه ... زوجتى ثائرة الى اقصى درجة وللأول مرة تجلس لتتحدث معى ... ياليتها تقلل قليلا من حده صوتها ... لكن الامر لله ... برضة احسن من مافيش...
زوجتى قررت انها لا تستطيع الانتظار اكثر ... لا اعلم انتظار ماذا ... انا مضطر استمع الى النهاية ..
زوجتى قررت انها اختارت الزوج المناسب لابنتى وقررت ان ستزوجها حتى لو اضطرت ان تربطها بالاحبال.. ووقفت زوجتى بجلالها وصولجانها تهدد ابنتنا انها ستتم زواجها شائت ام ابت ..

لم تسمع لصوتى وان اطلب منها ان تكف عن التهديد ... زوجتى حينما تتكلم لا تستطيع ان تسمع احد...

اما ابنتى التى تعلم جيدا بسطوة امها .. وسيطرتها ... وانه لن يوجد من يوقف امها وحتى انا... لانى لو تكلمت ... زوجتى الحبيبة ستاخذ شنطتها وتترك لنا البيت...

وضعت ابنتى الحبيبة وهى فى اجمل ايامها النهاية ........ اختفت ابنتى الى الابد ... اختارت ان تكون غريبة ووحيده افضل من ان تعيش بهذا القهر..
حزنت كثيرا ...ولم يوجد شىء فى العالم ينسينى ابنتى وحيدتى ... ولم استطع ان انظر الى وجه زوجتى وزهدتها الى يوم خروج نفسى من جسدى...
وحينما تركت الارض وجدت ابنتى ومليكة قلب ابيها كتبت لى رسالة بمشاعر قلبها المكسور... اترككم تقروا رسالة ابنتى:

(ابى الحبيب ...
كم تمنيت ان امسك يداك واقبلهما .. كم تمنيت ان اجلس الى جوارك واسمع منك لانى علمت ان البنت التى تتهذب على يدى ابيها تتمتع بمعرفة الحياة وتكون فتاة حرة بالحقيقة... لكن ماما كانت ها تتضايق والجو كان ها يتلبد بالغيوم .. ابى كم تمتعت وانا اسمعك تغرد كالعصفور حينما تكون عائدا الى البيت وكانك تقول لى "بابا جه" ...
بابا انا اعرف انك قبلت القهر وسيطرة ماما وتركتها تفعل ما تشاء فى سبيل ان لا تعطيها الفرصة فى كل كبيرة وصغيرة لترك البيت ... انت عملت كدا عشان تحافظ على صورتى .. عشان مستقبلى...
بابا انا دايما افتكرك وانت بتصحينى الصبح وتقبلنى على جبينى ...
بابا انا اختفيت لانى مش ها اقفبل ان اسلم ليد ماما رجل اخر تقهره ...
اختفيت لكون ابنتك الحرة التى تعشق كل ما هو سلام واحترام...
بابا انا ختفيت حتى لااكون صورة جديدة وامتداد لماما..)

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Thoughts on life

Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

Memorize your favorite poem.

Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

When you say, "I love you", mean it.

When you say, "I'm sorry", look the person in the eye.

Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

Believe in love at first sight.

Never laugh at anyone's dreams.

Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.

In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.

Don't judge people by their relatives.

Talk slow but think quick.

When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"

Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

Call your mom.

Say "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze.

When you lose, don't lose the lesson.

Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; Responsibility for all your actions.

Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.

Marry a someone you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other skill.

Spend time alone.

Open your arms to change, but don't let go of your values.

Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.

Read more books and watch less TV.

Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you'll get to enjoy it a second time.

Trust in God, but lock your car.

A loving atmosphere in your home is so important. Do all you can to create a tranquil harmonious home.

In disagreements with loved ones, deal with the current situation; don't bring up the past.

Read between the lines.

Share your knowledge. It's a way to achieve immortality.

Be gentle with the earth.

Pray -- there's immeasurable power in it.

Never interrupt when you are being flattered.

Mind your own business.

Don't trust someone who doesn't close their eyes when you kiss them.

Once a year, go someplace you've never been before.

If you make a lot of money, put it to use helping others while you are living. That is wealth's greatest satisfaction.

Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a stroke of luck.

Learn the rules then break some.

Remember that the best relationship is one where your love for each other is greater than your need for each other.

Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.

Remember that your character is your destiny.

Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.

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Reflections of a Mother

... Author Unknown

I gave you life, but cannot live it for you.

I can teach you things, but I cannot make you learn.

I can give you directions, but I cannot be there to lead you.

I can allow you freedom, but I cannot account for it.

I can take you to church, but I cannot make you believe.

I can teach you right from wrong, but I cannot always decide for you.

I can buy you beautiful clothes, but I cannot make you beautiful inside.

I can offer you advice, but I cannot accept it for you.

I can give you love, but I cannot force it upon you.

I can teach you to share, but I cannot make you unselfish.

I can teach you respect, but I cannot force you to show honor.

I can advise you about friends, but cannot choose them for you.

I can advise you about sex, but I cannot keep you pure.

I can tell you the facts of life, but I can't build your reputation.

I can tell you about drink, but I can't say "no" for you.

I can warn you about drugs but I can't prevent you from using them.

I can tell you about lofty goals, but I can't achieve them for you.

I can teach you about kindness, but I can't force you to be gracious.

I can warn you about sins, but I cannot make you moral

I can love you as a child, but I cannot place you in God's family.

I can pray for you, but I cannot make you walk with God.

I can teach you about Jesus, but I cannot make Jesus your Lord.

I can tell you how to live, but I cannot give you eternal life.

I can love you with unconditional love all of my life... and I will!

Always,

Mom

God's Garden

... Colleen Carey

God looked around his garden

And found an empty place.

He then looked down upon the earth

And saw her tired face.

He put His arms around her

And lifted her to rest.

God's garden must be beautiful,

He always takes the best.

He knew that she was suffering,

He knew she was in pain,

He knew that she would never

Get well on earth again.

He saw the road was getting rough

And the hills were hard to climb,

So he closed her weary eyelids

And whispered "Peace be thine".

It broke my heart to lose her,

But she didn't go alone.

For part of me went with her,

The day God called her home.

Friends

The old man turned to me and asked

"How many friends have you?"

Why 10 or 20 friends have I,

And named off just a few ~

He rose quite slowly with effort

And sadly shook his head

"A lucky child you are

To have so many friends," he said,

But think of what you're saying

There is so much you do not know

A friend is just not someone

To whom you say "Hello"

A friends a tender shoulder

On which to softly cry

A well to pour your troubles down

And raise your spirits high

A friend is a hand to pull you up

From darkness and despair...

When all your other "so called" friends

Have helped to put you there

A true friend is an ally

Who can't be moved or bought

A voice to keep your name alive

When others have forgot

But most of all a friend is a heart

A strong and sturdy wall

For from the hearts of friends

There comes the greatest love of all!

So think of what I've spoken

For every word is true

And answer once again my child

How many friends have you?

And then he stood and faced me

Awaiting my reply

Softly I answered

"If lucky... one have "I"

"You!

... Author Unknown

Fear and Faith

Fear imprisons,

faith liberates;

fear paralyzes,

faith empowers;

fear disheartens,

faith encourages;

fear sickens,

faith heals;

fear makes useless,

faith makes serviceable;

--and, most of all,

fear puts hopelessness at the heart of life,

while faith rejoices in its God.

. Harry Emerson Fosdick

Expectations

We are born into the World

Like a blank canvas

And each person that crosses our path

Takes up the brush

And makes his mark

Upon our surface

So it is that we develop

But we must realize that there comes a day

That we must take up the brush

And finish the work

For only we can determine

If we are to be

Just another painting

Or a Masterpiece

Javan